I first discovered Mind Mistress on a Winter's morning many years ago. Crossdressing aside, I had learned, quite by accident, that I was insanely aroused by watching women smoke.
A few quick searches on the web, and I was at the Mistress' site rapidly realizing that I was not alone in my fetish. I also found something very different, and very special.
I had experienced a few group trance sessions in the chat room, and although I felt something, I wasn't really sure exactly what I was feeling.
I know now that what I was feeling were triggers being planted as well as being given a subtle addiction to those trances through very positive reenforcement.
I was also told to start smoking again. Even though I had given up years before, the overwhelming urge was back, and I simply had to have a cigarette.
I immediately went out and bought a pack. The first drag was much like having a small orgasm. I'd forgotten just how wondeful it felt to have that creamy smoke flowing into my lungs.
Inhale.. Exhale.. Relaxation and something else. Something... nice.
More chats, more smoking... I read all of the stories. I stared into the flash files for hours. Then I purchased a couple of CD sessions.
Without realizing the connection, my overall confidence began to rise. I was feeling extremely feminine and my dressing pleasure increased greatly. In fact, it got to the point that I had to tell my girlfriend that I was a crossdresser and needed to stay dressed as much as I could.
She informed me that she would leave me if I didn't give up all that nonsense. So I did.
I destroyed the CDs. I burned my clothes. I gave up smoking, again. I deleted every flash file, MP3, picture and story I had and decided to go on with my life without Mistress.
And that is when I learned just how deeply I had already submitted to Mistress. That is when she came to take me back.